summer sun at moonlight

Her sundress tightly grasp in her left hand

Sand crabs filter through her right

The sun streams between locks of gorgeous red hair

her smile shines brighter than the summer sun

The shoreline in graced with her laughter, her beauty

And I am blessed with her love.

DRAFT / Worthless without HIM / DRAFT

I sing your praises
yet I am not worthy
I sing of your majesty, a pauper am I.

chorus:
Your grace it amazes
Your glory abounds

My GOD you are faithful
yet I disappoint you


Your grace it amazes
Your glory abounds

As I find it in me
I know Holy Spirit
the work that you have for me, is heaven sent.
My hands you have guided, my feet you have shod.
Though just a pauper, I'll beyond



Your grace it amazes
Your glory abounds
I sing of your majesty, a pauper am I.


Nothing is done Lord
that you've not ordained
paupers to priesthood
your kingdom is gained
 
Your grace it amazes
Your glory abounds
I sing of your majesty, a pauper am I.

YES! you have saved me
and moulded creation
I'm welcomed to priesthood
you've chosen me


Your grace it amazes
Your glory abounds
I sing of your majesty, a pauper was I.

(written for El JEFE Black Sheep HDFC Fresno Chapter)

Not me, AFRICA, HA!

To Kenya I go
to follow GOD'S plan
Have I really grown,
Am I really that man?
The natives are restless
craving their booze
bring them to Jesus
addictions to loose.
The choice is their's
has always been,
present them the tools
lift them as men.
Villages large
villages small
I've gone to Kenya
to answer HIS call.

Extra measure of peace please

Emotion
my heart
my soul
GOD, you are so real,
Why should I cry?
Tears of happiness
joy
anticipation.
Anxious to learn,
to share
LORD, grant me your peace

Way BIG, that's how big

How big is your world GOD?
As the clouds wisp under our wings
the land peeks through the panes
allowing discovery of pastures
villages, souls like ours.
Shiny rooftops like diamonds in a store
water flows giving life to those unknown inhabitants
WOW GOD!
Your world is huge.

Terminal Observation

Hustle and bustle
traveling the terminal,
faces intent on connection, others oblivious to surroundings
Baggage checked, baggage carried
baggage lost, and the baggage of life.
Harried employees pushing wheelchairs,
pilots and attendents bantering good natured.
A child crys, ears bursting from pressure;
young hot pant clad teens flirting with skaters,
and whose the guy with the Krugerand pendant,
or the dude with the holy jeans?
Dressed to the nines or sporting Nikes
the treadmill continues to destinations unknown

By myself, but NOT ALONE

Yesterday I left on a journey;
leaving Missy to mind the home front.
I jouney not alone, but
in the hands of GOD.
She wakes today without me, so
I toil not by her side.
Yet she is here,
in my heart, my spirit,
and the deepest depths of my soul

ONLY 17

The rockets’ red glare

I, never there

Was my country cheated

One year too young ?

Or shall I count my blessings

I didn’t return spun?

I listen to friends

yet cannot relate

to motars and bullets

flesh that’s been raked

Pain and suffering

of pals left behind,

their brothers, my countrymen

forever love binds.

On this the celebration

 of 4^th of July

my hats off to those

both home or behind.

May God Bless you all

our Heros and knights

over our country

our Flag

Freedom lights !

I have often wondered at my contribution to our Great country. Although too young to have served in South East Asia the majority of my current peer group did. It wasn't until my great friend KK returned from the motorcycle journey "Run To The Wall" that he began to open to his experiance, fears and pain of those he wondered about (did they get home?). Married to an Army veteran, brother and son to USCG & USAF veterans, I thank God for their selfless sacrafice to our country and insuring our freedom. May GOD BLESS them and all those who have and are serving!  

I closed my eyes

Silently reaching

the dark of the night

finding, clutching, holding

lips brushing lips

caressing, caressed

perfume permeates my senses.

Awakened, alone

Was she ever here?

The pillow wrinkled

She’s gone, but where?

The dark of the night

Day # 5478

Contemplating

15 years of bliss

Without you dear

What would I have missed?

The growth of our blending

 families as one,

REJOICE IN THE LORD,

GODS only Son.

Grandkids we have

and the ones on the way

you’ve made June 22^nd

a wonderful day!

Never

in my most silent,

lonely moments

would I have believed

you exisited

the girl to capture my heart.

Inside

a drum beats strong

no, wait

it’s my heart beat.

A butterfly

empty lighthearted stomach over flowing.

You

have cared and nursed

many times

so many injuries,

not physical

but life’s cruel, wicked trials.

Kids

leaving from train stations

dad rejected

feeling unbridled sorrow

crying outloud

you have always been there.

Grateful

I freely give you

on this

5478th wedded day

the man

I had hoped to be.

So

much more to say

yet words

cannot ever express

the love

I have for only you.

I

love you so much

hugs kisses

Our 15^th  anniversary

celebrates love

two souls have become one.

USELESS RANT w/addendum

Ruins my fence

and the side of my car,

who in the hell

do you think you are?

Colors from spray paint

bright and bold,

get out of my yard

miserable ass hole.

I know this sounds  ugly

but so is your work

put it on canvas

You selfish jerk.

You see beauty

I see pollution

Let’s meet in the middle

find a solution

Walls that rotate

for new pictures worth

10’ x 10’ in maximum girth

You need an outlet I need some order

I don’t want my town

looking south of the border

Can we form a district?

A place for your work

near accepting people

with colorful quirks

My world is not bland

nor close to hideous

It’s actually beautiful

Although fastidious

Reflecting on reflection

That man in the mirror

the one I see,

is he the one papa

wanted for me?

Have I kept my word, and lived my life

to be the man worthy

of his beautiful wife?

That man in my mirror

The one you see,

does he show honor

is he truly free,

from jealousy, hatred, cruelty ?

Has he been kind

to his fellow man

ready to offer his helping hand?

Is his word rock solid,

a steadfast bond?

Or does he crumble when the pressures on?

Would my papa be proud

of who I’ve become

Am I the guy, to whom grandchildren run?

Has he served his creator

as he should have done?

Has he shared the goodness of God’s son?

That man in my mirror

do his children know

how much he loves them

has it always shown?

H and E and DJ too,

The old man loves you and all you do!

Humility, Integrity, competent and true,

 these are the traits I so want for you.

Alone in his thoughts,

that reflecting soul

it becomes so clear as we get old.

It’s not about winning or stacking up stuff,

but what I will leave

when life’s been enough.

I so hope and pray,

that all I conveyed

will somehow make a difference in your living today.

Deliciously Red

As your petals wilt

And slowly fail

I am reminded of your full beauty.

Although sad to see them fall,

growth requires pruning.

Your branches present naked of flowers,

Your leaves are green,

glowing in the sunlight.

Capable of raking flesh,

your thorns scratch gently.

You are my rose.

No, HEAVEN SENT

Broken, bruised and battered,

is this, what I have caused?

My love, it burns intensely,

I know I have my flaws.

I do not mean to hold you down,

or even back a bit,

the thought that I have hurt you,

it makes me feel like shit.

I feel so total broken,

Bruised and battered too,

Oh how, oh how, oh how, my love

will I, make it up to you?

I know the dragon has been slain,

My princess home and safe,

I pray OH LORD to keep the demons

far, far from this place.

Broken, bruised and battered,

I wish, I hope and pray,

all your hurt and all your pain,

be taken on this day.

Lady love, my only one,

We’re Broken, bruised and battered,

Can’t you see, through all of this

Our dream had almost shattered.

Our love, I swear

can be enough,

if through this all we focus,

You and me, hand in hand

Who could come before us?

I pledge to you undying love,

old, in rocking chairs

better or worse, healthy or sick

And love you even

for it.

WANDA

How quickly life

slides from our grasp

not ours but

those we love

One call, one letter

Self absorbed

we forgot to love

To late

the hour past

The heart broken

to beat no more

DENTED FENDER

Rolled right up to my shiny car

Would she be my super star?

Burger fries chocolate shake

 “UH, ride with me around the lake?”

She looked at me a bit annoyed,

“I don’t date high school boys!”

NUTURED

In my pot I sit

Waiting

Yearning for you to till my soil

Waiting patiently

nourished me

water me

smell my petals

My fragrance desires

to fill your presence

with the aroma of love

Place me on the window sill

There I bask in SON light

LADY RED

Alabaster skin

contrasted on satin

Emitting a glow of

sated desires

Your breath

softly ragged against the still night

Your hair

Beautiful, red, gently tousled

Your smile

ever knowing

How much I love you

QUENCHED

Oh! Isle of rock in an ocean of sorrow

Rescue me upon your shores

You invite the weary

Iam so

Shelter me among your trees

For warmth is what I need

Invite me to your spring

That I may drink your water

Precious nectar to a parched sole

Like a love lost then returned

Green jeans "n" lace

Captivated by your sultry smile

Hidden eyes behind bangs of red

My castle is yours,

Knights Honor *

Feather bed and warmth,

Knights Honor *

Slay your demons and dragons

Protecting virtue,

Knights Honor *

Sweet damsel

Return to me

My future queen

Today marks my 15th wedding anniversary. Green jeans "n" lace, although not my best of works, does depict the night I met my soulmate. A lonely Fire Captain was being released from a wildland incident, only to look forward to a very empty house. My children, unable to stay by themselves had cut our weekend short and returned to their mother. Dispondent and defeated I was to return to my tiny state owned residence (in the middle of nowhere) when God shined his face upon me. A beautiful 911 dispatcher had been assigned to the same incident and we met in one of many command trailers. One look and she had me.  A zillion cups of very bad coffee later, I offered her a hot shower and rather than sleeping on the ground in fire camp,the kids bedroom (KNIGHT'S HONOR!).  Although she returned to the central valley after our brief innocent encounter, I could not forget that redheaded damsel. I was spun! A long distance romance ensued and one year later we joined our families. She likes to say I gave her a classic truck, trick dog and a Harley, but I am sure I got the better deal; HER and a 10 year old son. I am TRULY BLESSED! 

9 to 5

My lips burn

From today’s goodbye

Patiently waiting

For tonight’s return

Desperate Cloud

Why can’t I

STOP

Reading between the lines

Why do I

SWALLOW

This poison tablet

There is no proof

BELIEVE

You fool

BROKEN

I know she knows

And feels as I do

LOVE !

Fantastic truths

gloomed reality

ENOUGH !

Hope to forget

Get on with our life

PLEADING !

Aching, hating

Cleanse my heart O’LORD

FORGIVE

Healing

My wounds

my heart

the pain runs so deep.

 flooding emotion

Not me

Lord, where is my strength ?

He answers

 forget

I choose to grovel

Don’t Stop

Her smile and laughter

pushes me to pursue

her pleasure.

My desire

to love her again

and again.

NIBBLE

Gentle kisses

Her long slender neck

Warm hot breath

burns her ears.

Does she know I breathe for her?

My Minds Eye

Visions of you.

Smiles,

Laughter in her eyes.

Visions of you next to me,

only me.

Visions of you,

in my minds eye.

Thanks for making me smile and laugh,

content in us.

Here’s looking at you kid.

Shhhhhh!

Soundly she slumbers

Snoring gently

Her breath exchanges

Dreams for reality.

Does she dream of me?

LOST

Trust in myself

Lost forever

Unable to be placed

Bulling I search

Jealosy, unreason

Wracking my bones

I so long for yesterday

HEAVENLY SCENT

Gently

The fragrance of grapes

escapes from her lips

Her breath quickens

as my fingers dance

on her shoulders

massaging, kneading

as I need her

DISCOVERED

Dirty little man,

stealth in the night

waiting till wee hours

to wreck your havoc

Innocent lass

peaked at through windows

pulled from her safety

her home, her love

However fleeting

never yours

You stole from her

from me

Your kneecaps are fragile